Matthew Williams' channel and this video among the others is absolutely wonderful and understated. 200 views for this video and yet it has very useful information, one of the most useful videos on crop circles:
CirclemakersTV SHOW29 Cameron Kelly - YouTube
I am listening to every word these people are saying. There's a consensus nowadays, among the awakened people, that 80% of crop circles are man-made, so it makes a lot of sense to listen to these guys who are making them. And understand the process and their motivations: some are artists like this guy and others are artists hired by the secret service precisely to confuse people regarding the "genuine" crop circles (not man-made). I subscribe to rob buckle's point of view right now, explained in this video:
Crop Circles - The Truth & The Lies (Pt 1) - YouTube
minute 19: "you don't see the whole scope of what you've created until the next morning". It reminded me of my trading systems. You work for days, idea, code, backtest, forwardtest... and yet you don't see the whole scope of what you've created until you trade it with real money and find out it works. Until then you're a bit in the dark, like these crop circle makers.
And when you start making real money with them, you get scared by how beautiful it is what you've created. And you don't feel entitled to the beauty or at least I did. For some reasons, once they start making real money, I always find a way to disrupt the process. I can never sit back and let them work. I wonder if it's something about the forces of nature that is also involved in this crop circle making. Or if it's just psychological and all in my mind. And if, as I've always said, it's just a faulty process of my mind that consists mostly of restlessness and me wanting to make money faster (and failing as a consequence). Those systems I had started trading in january, that brought me from 4k to 12k, and then i stopped following them, in the meanwhile have brought capital beyond 20k. But I am here, back at 3k because... ah ah, at 12k, I wanted to speed it all up and started adding trades of my own. Ah ah. It's so crazy, it happens every time.
And right now I am out of crop. I am making crop circles in field with very little grass. Is "grass" a synonym for "money"? Well, basically I am looking for a field, or I am growing my own field. It's like running a marathon. I am a long distance runner. You have to wait ages before you see any results (due to lack of capital in my case, and due to other reasons in other situations).
But this also applies to learning other things and developing other skills, like learning a foreign language. You put together the words for months and years until you can finally solve the whole puzzle of communicating and understanding in a foreign language: you don't see the whole scope of what you've learned until the end, which, if you live in the foreign country and have no contact with people from your country, happens in a few months. I kept studying and studying, and then one day, I could understand people, watch a movie, be understood. Until then it was like working on a puzzle when you can't put the pieces together, but also working on it as you put more and more together but not all them quite yet.