Yamato
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Amazing. There were neighbours making a lot of noise. When I hear people screaming it makes me upset. But now my ego is watching my Id. I am realizing what is going on in myself.
So I realized that, as a consequence of people making loud noise, I felt the urge to do something: and now I see clearly that what I'd like to do, deep inside, is beat them up.
But you can't do it. So what happens? Until now I did this:
1) compulsive gambling
2) scratching my head or nose
3) eating
It is now very clear where the problem is coming from: that I cannot beat people up.
And the objective is to prevent myself from hurting myself by taking out the violence on myself. And the only way I can think of is exercise, and the quickest way is: 1) push-ups 2) pull ups.
You simply don't have time to go the gym, swimming pool, park. You have to react quickly or you'll take it out on yourself or on others, too. By screaming, by talking more loudly, by saying something rude. Given education, we have learned to not beat people up, but we have not been taught the alternative: exercise.
No wonder I heard so many boxers saying that they started boxing not just to defend themselves but to vent out their frustration. I finally figured it all out. It is all about our repressed human nature and what we replace fighting with. Some eat, drink, some gamble, and the smart ones... exercise.
It is all about meeting/hearing people that make you want to kill them. I suppose that a person living on a deserted island will not have any problems of compulsive behaviours, because a lack of people... for example right now the bitch next door is playing the ****ing horse with her son, some game I heard from the doorman: he climbs on her back and she runs around in the house. These sick idiots next door have been bothering me for years and as a consequence I've 1) eaten, 2) gambled... and all the other things i said. Because I wanted to exterminate this whole family but, since I couldn't, I had to scratch my head.
Now instead: it's exercise. Exercise. Exercise. Every time I feel frustrated because I cannot kill someone, I will know what to do: exercise.
Great thing I stumbled upon these two things: Freud (I read 5 minutes on wikipedia but it was enough) and the concept of exercise - I can't remember how I thought of it... there it is, 24th of June:
http://www.trade2win.com/boards/trading-journals/140032-my-journal-3-a-177.html#post1893046
where I mentioned this website:
http://jonathan.graehl.org/evidence-that-self-control-can-be-trained-lik
that says this:
...
well, it talks about "ego-depletion" and ways to increase it, but maybe I misinterpreted it - however I think my point is even more valid. It's a whole new psychological theory I created maybe.
You see these guys talk about self-control, but the point is not to increase the sheer will-power, but rather to remove the frustration you have to resist. Where does the frustration come from? The impossibility to kill someone who's bothering you. This in turn leads to all the compulsive behaviours, that are known to be caused by "frustration". But my insight is that we deal with removing that frustration: the urge to kill is conveyed into exercise, as you are fully consciou of it, of that urge to kill that you're having to repress. Of that animal instinct.
How do you deal with it? You don't sit still and practice willpower by not engaging in compulsive behaviors (eating, scratching, biting, gambling, drinking, smoking, etc.): you deal with the desire for action, for exercise by exercising physically.
Once you deal with that urge to kill, the frustration is removed and the need for willpower and self-control is removed, too.
So I realized that, as a consequence of people making loud noise, I felt the urge to do something: and now I see clearly that what I'd like to do, deep inside, is beat them up.
But you can't do it. So what happens? Until now I did this:
1) compulsive gambling
2) scratching my head or nose
3) eating
It is now very clear where the problem is coming from: that I cannot beat people up.
And the objective is to prevent myself from hurting myself by taking out the violence on myself. And the only way I can think of is exercise, and the quickest way is: 1) push-ups 2) pull ups.
You simply don't have time to go the gym, swimming pool, park. You have to react quickly or you'll take it out on yourself or on others, too. By screaming, by talking more loudly, by saying something rude. Given education, we have learned to not beat people up, but we have not been taught the alternative: exercise.
No wonder I heard so many boxers saying that they started boxing not just to defend themselves but to vent out their frustration. I finally figured it all out. It is all about our repressed human nature and what we replace fighting with. Some eat, drink, some gamble, and the smart ones... exercise.
It is all about meeting/hearing people that make you want to kill them. I suppose that a person living on a deserted island will not have any problems of compulsive behaviours, because a lack of people... for example right now the bitch next door is playing the ****ing horse with her son, some game I heard from the doorman: he climbs on her back and she runs around in the house. These sick idiots next door have been bothering me for years and as a consequence I've 1) eaten, 2) gambled... and all the other things i said. Because I wanted to exterminate this whole family but, since I couldn't, I had to scratch my head.
Now instead: it's exercise. Exercise. Exercise. Every time I feel frustrated because I cannot kill someone, I will know what to do: exercise.
Great thing I stumbled upon these two things: Freud (I read 5 minutes on wikipedia but it was enough) and the concept of exercise - I can't remember how I thought of it... there it is, 24th of June:
http://www.trade2win.com/boards/trading-journals/140032-my-journal-3-a-177.html#post1893046
where I mentioned this website:
http://jonathan.graehl.org/evidence-that-self-control-can-be-trained-lik
that says this:
...
well, it talks about "ego-depletion" and ways to increase it, but maybe I misinterpreted it - however I think my point is even more valid. It's a whole new psychological theory I created maybe.
You see these guys talk about self-control, but the point is not to increase the sheer will-power, but rather to remove the frustration you have to resist. Where does the frustration come from? The impossibility to kill someone who's bothering you. This in turn leads to all the compulsive behaviours, that are known to be caused by "frustration". But my insight is that we deal with removing that frustration: the urge to kill is conveyed into exercise, as you are fully consciou of it, of that urge to kill that you're having to repress. Of that animal instinct.
How do you deal with it? You don't sit still and practice willpower by not engaging in compulsive behaviors (eating, scratching, biting, gambling, drinking, smoking, etc.): you deal with the desire for action, for exercise by exercising physically.
Once you deal with that urge to kill, the frustration is removed and the need for willpower and self-control is removed, too.
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