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Good paper:
http://www.ncbi.nlm.nih.gov/pmc/articles/PMC1284112/pdf/9652100.pdf

Self-control is defined as behavior that results in access to a larger reinforcer after a longer delay, rather than impulsive behavior that results in a small reinforcer after a shorter or no delay...

Maybe this is the only problem I am having with gambling: the lack of "distracter activities".

In an applied setting, the selection of beneficial distracter activities that occur in conjunction with a gradually increasing delay to a larger, more advantageous reinforcer may potentially increase both tolerance for longer delays and appropriate responding of other sorts.

It is shown that "distracter activities" increase your capability of choosing a larger later reward over a smaller sooner reward. So, given that I didn't have a life for years, meaning no "distracter activities" whatsoever, it is normal that the urge for a quicker and smaller reward (compulsive gambling) was much more impelling and it made me overlook the longer term bigger reward (money and quitting my job).

Furthermore, in order to do all the work I've been doing, I had to take the fun out of social life, and avoid it altogether. As a consequence, I have forgotten that being social is not just a "distracter activity" but might be a reward itself: I can clearly see how sometimes I even looked forward to meeting some people.

So in order to learn a good habit of postponing the reward to make it larger (such as choosing profit over compulsive gambling) I have to:

1) find ways to reward myself for longer and longer waits
2) avoid stress, which always decreases self-control
3) increase "distracter activities"

A combination of all these may work.

Speaking of psychology, here's an excellent documentary on the usual american trend of corporations making money at the expense of the american people:

Psychiatry An Industry Of Death Full Length - YouTube

Of course this happens because in the US the corporations are in control of everything: education, medicine and especially government and mass media.

This is even better:

Making a Killing: The Untold Story of Psychotropic Drugging - Full Movie (Documentary) - YouTube

I really like what Ben Hansen says at the end of minute 27: he really sums it up: the pharmaceutical companies need their drugs to not work, because that way they'll have a customer for life.

This is so grotesque (minute 22 to 24 in particular) that it's funny if it weren't true and tragic. Just like 911, the war on drugs, the war on terror, the moon landings, and all the other frauds going on in the US.

All these documentaries about psychotropic drugs made me wonder whether there's a drug for gambling, and it seems overall it's not a good idea (there is a drug but with little effectiveness and a lot of side effects). But I found good information on compulsive gambling, while browsing.

Medication To Stop Gambling | LIVESTRONG.COM

Pathological gambling is an impulse-control disorder that is related to substance-abuse disorders.

A Drug To Stop Gambling?: Healthy For Life from the Eyewitness News Newsroom

Experts say there are two types of gamblers.

Action Gamblers -- Almost all action gamblers are males who generally started gambling in their early teen years. These individuals are usually very intelligent and have high IQ test scores. They enjoy participating in games that require skill and strategy. Usually, the behaviors persist for 10 to 30 years before these individuals seek help. Recovery rates are extremely low for action gamblers, and only about 2 percent recover from their addiction within the first year of treatment.

Escape Gamblers -- About 75 percent of escape gamblers are women. These types of addicts prefer games that require little or no skill such as slot machines, bingo, and the lottery. Unlike action gamblers, escape gamblers will seek help within six months to three years after their addiction starts.

PHASES OF GAMBLING: The four phases of gambling include:

The Winning Phase -- During this phase, addicts may encounter several large or small wins that offer a sense of emotional escape. They also may experience a boost in self-esteem and a sense of empowerment. They spend much of their time at casinos, socializing with other gamblers.

The Losing/Chasing Phase -- Gamblers begin to ignore family and become irritable when they're not gambling. The addiction becomes the sole coping mechanism for these individuals. Losses are explained away as poor luck during this phase, and addicts may borrow money to support their habit.

The Desperation Phase -- During this phase, gamblers have no time for anything other than their addiction. They typically lie, blame their loved ones, and lack accountability for their actions. Their financial situation is out of control.

The Hopeless Phase -- This is the most serious phase a gambler encounters. It may involve clinical depression, suicide or other actions that may be life threatening or may land the gambler in jail.

I have experienced much of what described above.

 

[Yamato]

If there is one link that explains my problem best is this one:
Impulse control disorder - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

I do not suffer from impulsivity at all, in general, but in a very few cases, I do immensely: compulsive gambling, of this type:

Action Gamblers -- Almost all action gamblers are males who generally started gambling in their early teen years. These individuals are usually very intelligent and have high IQ test scores. They enjoy participating in games that require skill and strategy. Usually, the behaviors persist for 10 to 30 years before these individuals seek help. Recovery rates are extremely low for action gamblers, and only about 2 percent recover from their addiction within the first year of treatment.

And then also, occasionally, eating. But I am not fat. I am simply less in control of eating than I would like to be. I guess for most people this is acceptable, but not for me since I want to be fully in control of myself.

Here's the second or first ex-aequo link:
Behavioral addiction - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Behavioral (non-chemical) addiction is a form of addiction which does not rely on drugs like alcohol. Increasingly referred to as process addiction[1] or non-substance-related addiction [2][3]) behavioral addiction includes a compulsion to repeatedly engage in an action until said action causes serious negative consequences to the person's physical, mental, social, and/or financial well-being.[4][5] One sign that a behavior has become addictive is if it persists despite these consequences.

There is disagreement as to the exact nature of behavioral addiction or dependency. [13] However, the biopsychosocial model is generally accepted in scientific fields as the most comprehensive model for addiction. Historically, addiction has been defined with regard solely to psychoactive substances (for example alcohol, tobacco and other drugs) which cross the blood–brain barrier once ingested, temporarily altering the chemical milieu of the brain. However, "studies on phenomenology, family history, and response to treatment suggest that intermittent explosive disorder, kleptomania, problem gambling, pyromania, and trichotillomania may be related to mood disorders, alcohol and psychoactive substance abuse, and anxiety disorders (especially obsessive–compulsive disorder)."[14]

In the case of pathological gambling, for example, the American Psychological Association classifies the condition as an impulse control disorder and not an addiction.

There are many similarities in the neurobiology of behavior and drug addictions. One of the most important discoveries of addictions has been the drug based reinforcement and, even more important, reward based learning processes. Several structures of the brain are important in the conditioning process of behavior addiction. One of the major areas of study includes the region, called the amygdala, which involves emotional significance and associated learning. Research shows that dopaminergic projections to the amygdala facilitate a motivational or learned association to a specific behavior. [16] The cycle that is created is considered the dopamine reward system.

Dopamine neurons take a role in the learning and sustaining of many of the behaviors we acquire. Research specific to Parkinson’s disease has led to identifying the intracellular signaling pathways that underlie the immediate actions of dopamine. The most common mechanism of dopamine is to create addictive properties along with certain behaviors. [17] There are three stages to the dopamine reward system: bursts of dopamine, triggering of behavior, and further impact to the behavior. Once electronically signaled, possibly through the behavior, dopamine neurons let out a ‘burst-fire’ of elements to stimulate areas along fast transmitting pathways. The behavior response then perpetuates the striated neurons to further send stimuli. The fast firing of dopamine neurons can be monitored over time by evaluating the amount of extracellular concentrations of dopamine through micro dialysis and brain imaging. This monitoring can lead to a model in which one can see the multiplicity of triggering over a period of time. [18] Once the behavior is triggered, it is hard to work away from the dopamine reward system.

Behaviors like gambling have been linked to the new found idea of the brain’s capacity to predict rewards. The reward system can be triggered by early detectors of the behavior, and trigger dopamine neurons to begin stimulating behaviors. But in some cases, it can lead to many issues due to error, or reward-prediction errors. These errors can act as teaching signals to create a complex behavior task over time. [18]

The "dopamine reward system", interesting.

It is estimated that at least 90% of Americans have at least one form of soft addiction in their lives. Nadine Kaslow, PhD, professor of psychology and behavioral sciences at Emory University in Atlanta, has commented on the issue, saying that while it is healthy to relieve stress with behaviors like drinking coffee and watching television, when they become habitual they become problematic to one's health and happiness.[19]

Cyber-psychologist Kimberly Young, director of the Center for Online Addiction, has addressed Internet addiction, one of the most common types of "soft addictions". Young has likened excessive Internet use to pathological gambling.[20]

Research around addictions and social media sites has been growing. The Retrevo company recently came out with research suggesting that there is an obsessiveness to the way people are checking their pages.[21][citation needed]

4. Dopamine's Role in Reward - YouTube

excellent...

excellent...

Addiction is a "disease of choice":

Holy cow... it's all about dopamine and how drug/behavioral addictions release it:

There's a whole world out there...

It almost seems as if a daily cup of hot chocolate could spare me the compulsive gambling... and the rest of my behavioral addictions.

I know he's not saying this in the video. But basically it's about nutrition, partly, and about behavior for the other part. I will try to tackle my problems from all points of view and see how and if I solve them.

The good thing is that I don't have to just deal with compulsive gambling but with a lot of other compulsive behaviours, so I will have a... gym to practice, with a lot of tools and tests. For example: will I be able to resist the cake in the refrigerator? Will I be able to refrain from scratching my scalp? And will I be able to not talk in a given situation? I don't know that many situations, because I am not addicted to any drugs, but I have a few of them.

[...]

Ok, I drank some hot chocolate and now I'll watch a movie. Let's see if I can manage to scratch my scalp today. Except the movie must not produce stress otherwise it's pointless. That's another problem I have: I tend to seek stressful and challenging activities. This might be the problem.

Whether we call it dopamine or not, we could say that we need a given amount of reward every day, and if we don't get it, we will seek it by eating snacks, watching tv, staying up, scratching our head, or whatever else is available.

 

[Yamato]

UFO - Real UFOs - YouTube

 

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This says that physical exercise helps improve self-control:
Evidence that self-control can be trained (like a muscle) - Jonathan Graehl

The hot chocolate didn't work: I still scratched my scalp big time. Tomorrow I'll try exercise.

 

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Conspiracy Of Silence (Banned Discovery Channel Documentary) - YouTube

GeorgeWalkerBush.net - Bush Death List

Gary Caradori
He was investigating Lawrence E. King, Jr., a very influential black Republican who was also a friend of George H.W. Bush. King was director of the Franklin Community Credit Union in Omaha, Nebraska, and was suspected of embezzling $40 million. The Nebraska Senate questioned child prostitutes, who accused King of running a child prostitution ring. One of these children said that she saw George H.W. Bush at one of King's parties. "Pronto", a newspaper in Barcelona, Spain, reported that the scandal "appears to directly implicate politicos of the state of Nebraska and Washington DC who are very close to the White House and George Bush himself". On July 11, 1990, Gary Caradori was killed along with his 6-year old son in the crash of his small plane, after a mid-air explosion, the cause of which was never discovered. He had told friends repeatedly in the weeks before his death that he was afraid his plane would be sabotaged.

The Franklin Scandal: A Story of Powerbrokers, Child Abuse and Betrayal - Cover Letter Sidebar

I should also mention that a lot of people were killed to keep this story a secret. In my extremely cropped article, I note 4 suicides and a blown up plane that killed 2 people. The high mortality rate associated with story makes people very reluctant to talk.

George Bush Sr. slips up on national TV!! - YouTube

Damn. This is not the type of stuff that will help me improve my self-control, as it only increases my frustration and stress. Yet I keep on being drawn to complex and frustrating stuff (including my six months of intensive math), because that's the way I was brought up: to work hard. And work is frustrating. Yet frustration makes me lose self-control where it matters, and it produces compulsive behaviours, such as compulsive gambling, which keeps me from profiting from my hard work. This has to be stopped.

I'll stop delving into this truths, and watch movies for a few weeks. Starting with this:
Watch xXx: State of the Union online free 2005 - download xXx: State of the Union - LetMeWatchThis

It wasn't good. Watching this now:
Watch The Manchurian Candidate online free 2004 - download The Manchurian Candidate - LetMeWatchThis
Seen it already, excellent movie. The problem is that it's all true. They take the truth, mix it up, and pretend it's science fiction, so they don't get in trouble. This is what happens with most of these "conspiracy" films.

The ultimate science fiction video is this guy saying "...not the law of the jungle", which in fact is the law he lived by all his life:

Bush, George Herbert Walker - New World Order Speech - YouTube

With this kind of people in power, the only way to document reality is to pretend you're making a science fiction movie.

George H.W. Bush, USN - YouTube

Bush Mission Rescue - YouTube

At this point I am not inclined to believe anything this man says or any documentary about this man. He probably had his crew killed, just like the Manchurian Candidate. Probably he was taught to lie from birth.

The documentary about his rescue is probably as true as the 911 chronicles will sound a few decades from now. They even made a film of him being rescued. Bull****. He probably killed his crew and then set his plane on fire.

 

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In the US the murderers and pedophiles are in power and the innocent ones get blamed for their crimes, and get two life sentences, like this guy:

Wayne Williams interview - YouTube

I am never going back to that country. I am not moving from europe, which is the only hope for civilization. It is really the law of the jungle, except it's a jungle where physical strength is replaced by money and willingness to use it to abuse other people.

Next conspiracy thriller:
Watch Dark City online free 1998 - download Dark City - LetMeWatchThis

Not good.

This is next:
Watch The Spanish Prisoner online free 1997 - download The Spanish Prisoner - LetMeWatchThis

Now this:

Most Wanted (1997) Part 1 - YouTube

Not good. It was nothing good if compared to The Ghost Writer, The Green Zone and not even as good as The Manchurian Candidate.

This is next, probably tomorrow:

ENEMY OF THE STATE (1998) Special Edition - YouTube

Holy cow. Jon Voight and Gene Hackman are in all of these conspiracy thrillers. Either them two or Denzel Washington: whenever there's a movie about corrupt government, or police or military. Oh, and I cannot forget to include Max Von Sydow and Tommy Lee Jones, who practically do nothing but this type of movies.

This seems to be a good one. Other than these few good "science fiction" (The Matrix) and "conspiracy" (Three Days of the Condor) movies, deafening silence from Hollywood on what the US government has been doing for the past few decades.

 

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Tonight I met my father: stress increased, automatically, as expected. When stress increases impulse control decreases. I studied the subject, as explained recently, and exercise is a stress reducer, so I did a few push ups. Usually, instead of doing push ups, after meeting my father, almost immediately, I'd start eating something (which I briefly did, but it was healthy food), or I'd start scratching my head.

Today, all day, whenever I felt the urge to scratch myself, I did a few pushups and for whatever reason, maybe the pushups, I did not scratch my scalp all day long. The first day I don't do it in months.

I still have to see if this is effective in fighting insomnia, and in fighting overeating. So far so good.

I wonder if there's a way to measure stress, and I still haven't given up on devising a method to measure will-power and self-control.

 

[Yamato]

Ok, today there's one more step forward: I brought some small tomatoes to the office. That way I will test myself and check if I am capable of eating tomatoes instead of snacks at the vending machines: it's cheaper and healthier.

I was thinking this: if I am correct in my estimate that exercise replaces nail biting, scratching and similar, then such behavior should be more frequent among employees than carpenters, who are people who naturally do a lot more exercise (at least for those 8 hours a day). I have to find nail biting statistics to verify it.

There's something here but it's not enough:
NIMH · NIMH Statistics

Something more here but still not enough:
HESonline

By a quick research it's clear that i better give up, because there's nothing out there. There's plenty of statistics on the web on other subjects: for example, google public data.

Mmh, that's from international organizations. How about the WHO?

WHO | Data and statistics

Better than the previous ones.

More here:
WHO | Global Health Observatory Data Repository

But still not enough.

Searching APA now:
http://search.apa.org/search?query=statistics

Nope. Labyrinthine, but nothing there either. You guys suck.

I was wrong about my internet connection being cut off by the CIA. It was a coincidence. I connected to this forum all weekend, posted all that crap on the corrupted politicians, and yet the connection worked fine all weekend.

[...]

I kept researching and I found something, even though not much (but the website is a good one):
http://psychology.wikia.com/wiki/Nail_biting

28% to 33% of children ages 7-10 years old,
44% of adolescents,
19% to 29% of young adults and
5% of older adults
It is more common in young males

I stopped as an adolescent, so I was still out there with the majority, because it's more common among males. The problem is that I replaced it with scalp scratching... or whatever it's called, even though it's not as sever as what's described here:
http://www.skinpick.com/scalp-picking

About nail biting: maybe adults have the need for less exercise and maybe also they have to sit for fewer hours. The time I was biting my nails was in class or while doing homework. Now I neither have to sit in class nor do homework. And, also, as I said, another factor might be that as you get older your restlessness decreases.

Too bad I could not verify if computer programmers are more inclined to these disorders than carpenters. My opinion is that they are very much. You sit there at the computer, don't move all day long, and you vent out your need for action by taking it out on your body. A carpenter lives naturally instead. Humans are not comfortable sitting tight for too long.

Too bad I don't have the data to verify this.

I would take it further: as we sit down without action, we vent out our need for action by engaging in these compulsive habits: compulsive gambling, scratching and sometimes eating. If stress increases, these habits increase.

If it's like this, I might be able to solve it with the push ups: the more sitting the more push ups, the more stress the more push ups. Push ups will be my medicine. If I feel like eating, it's probably because I want to chew, and that means I need action, and I will respond with push ups. The same for scratching. The same with the mere thought/desire of compulsive gambling. Let's see if it works.

I will answer to all my needs for action with push ups instead of unhealthy action (eating, scratching, compulsive gambling).

This will revolutionize my life and yes, I still regret losing all my capital instead of being at 25k, which I'd have right now had I not gambled. But you cannot be profitable until everything is perfect. And this is clearly the case with me: I still have problems interfering with my profitability. And therefore it obviously didn't happen, once again.

 

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It seems that this dude is the connection of the devil with today's government, but I might be wrong:
Albert Pike

Soon after the infiltration of Illuminism into Freemasonry at the end of the 18th century, another extraordinary figure emerged. His name was Albert Pike (1809-1891) and his impact was akin to that of Weishaupt’s. Pike became a Mason in 1850 and then, in a meteoric rise to power, was elected Grand Commander of the Southern Jurisdiction of the United States in 1859. He essentially made Scottish Rite Masonry the institution it is today, and expressed contempt for Christianity at every opportunity. One of his Masonic titles was “Sovereign Pontiff of Lucifer.” Pike regarded Lucifer as the true god, as do many witches and pagans today.

Pike chose to follow the mystery religions of Baal. If we look at his writings and statements attributed to him, we find that he acknowledged Lucifer as the true god and Adonay (the Biblical God) as the “god of evil.” Pike’s “fruits” are definitely satanic (Matthew 7: 15-20). Pike was influenced by the Italian Freemason and revolutionary, Giuseppi Mazzini (1805-1872). Mazzini had formed a society in Sicily called the Oblonica that means “I reckon with a dagger.” As is typical with the Masons, Mazzini formed an order within an order. This elite inner group was called by a term most people will recognise ~ the Mafia. The name is an acronym for Mazzini autorizza furti, incendi, avvelenamenti ~ Mazzini authorises thefts, arson and poisoning. The Mafia was also known by another term, Il Mano Nigro ~ the Black Hand. Mafia crimes were often sealed by a black handprint at the scene. This, of course, was an Illuminati touch: the hand with palm forward and five digits extended. Pike helped create the Ku Klux Klan, a secret terrorist society in the southern states of America. No black men were ever admitted to Masonic Lodges in the Southern Jurisdiction. Thus Negroes were obliged to adapt their own form of Masonry that is called Prince Hall Masonry.

There's more than enough in the quote above for me to say that Albert Pike was an asshole and that all freemasons are assholes. But it would be superficial to say it without studying this subject further.

For now what seems to me is that freemasons control the world, or maybe the world is controlled by others who in turn control freemasonry. The so-called "conspiracy theorists", who are usually right, keep talking about the "Illuminati", also mentioned in the quote above.

Whether it's the freemasons causing the evil of the world or it is the illuminati causing the evil by controlling the freemasons and others, the freemasons seem to be assholes overall.

At this point the next question I am curious about is how powerful they are outside the US, because I was thinking that they're not that powerful in Italy, but then some people - I recently met a 33rd degree freemason - told me that Monti is a freemason. If this is true, and it seems so, then we're all ****ed.

The Da Monti Code - By James Walston | Foreign Policy

A Nov. 30 editorial by Marco Travaglio in the daily newspaper Il Fatto Quotidiano, headlined "Giù il cappuccio" ("Off with the hood"), makes the point that the new junior ministers in Prime Minister Mario Monti's government have political pedigrees (and sometimes not very clean ones) behind their much-touted "technical" qualifications. This is all fair enough. But it is a little strange when he goes on to infer that many of them are masons wearing hoods.

The crap that went on in the US for decades did not happen in Italy, certainly not on that scale. But if Monti and Draghi are part of the freemasons, although unconsciously, they might still implement that evil agenda.

Here's another article on this:
MARIO MONTI E LA MASSONERIA: UNA RELAZIONE PERICOLOSA PER L’ITALIA. « Il Corsivo Quotidiano

Nell’elenco dei 43 massoni italiani che abbiamo pubblicato qualche mese fa (elenco consultabile qui) il nome di Mario Monti c’era.

Il nostro futuro premier, così ben voluto da tutti, é un massone. Ha preso parte alle riunioni segrete del gruppo Bilderberg numerose volte, fa parte della Commissione Trilaterale (la più potente loggia massonica del mondo) ed é membro della Golden Sachs, la più potente banca d’affari dell’intero pianeta, la grande burattinaia dell’intero mercato finanziario internazionale.

The thing that puzzles me here is that they equate "Bilderberg" and "Trilateral Commission" to freemasons and it is not the same thing at all. They're just as evil in their plans and even more guilty of inventing 911 and similar plots. But they don't worship the devil. They don't do all those bull**** ceremonies. They're evil but they're not a secret organization worshiping the devil.

 

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films to watch today

List of conspiracy-thriller films and television series - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Proceeding in reverse chronological order, from newest to oldest, I have watched everything I could find all the way to the year 1998, and I am finishing Enemy of the State, which was a piece of ****.

Going all the way to 1995, I still have to watch:
Shadow Conspiracy
The Man Who Knew Too Little
Murder at 1600
Absolute Power
The Long Kiss Goodnight
Eraser
Extreme Measures
I am going to skip "Nixon", because he was an asshole anyway.
Nick of Time
Panther

I am making sure I don't read anything on these movies before I watch them. I also skip the opening titles, so I don't get influenced by director and actors.

Less than 2 hours to go, here at the office. I ate one tomato, and still have 3 to go. In fact, if you eat healthy, half of the temptation of eating sweets or snacks at the vending machine is gone. No scratching of nose or head, either. Obviously I couldn't do any push ups, but I tried something similar on my desk. Anyway, I only have another hour and 50 minutes to go, before going to the ATM to get some money.

 

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Occult Forces (1943) National Socialist Anti-Freemasonry Film - YouTube

Quoting from Youtube:

"One of the most unique and uniquely odd film I have seen.
Considering when and where it was made, the production values are almost unbelievably high. It seems to have been made in occupied France, with the clear intent to blame the Freemasons as dupes and/or masterminds in engineering the outbreak of war.
While proving the premise seems like it would be an uphill battle, the film demonstrates great care in citing historical events within France to back this up. Citing Freemason infiltration into the German government as well (i.e., Nazi establishment), for a supposedly "National Socialist" (read NAZI) film, it does a really good job of making the German Freemason agitator look like a bad guy! A last minute attempt by the Nazi collaborators to shuffle blame to the Freemasons for the war not going so well? I wonder...
Prescott Bush (yes the ancestor of the American presidents) did funnel cash to the Nazis to get them started... member of Skull and Bones, subsidiary of Freemasons. Obviously there is a real-life tie in here somewhere! So one cannot dismiss the film's premise out of hand.
Students of freemasonry and NWO detectives will find here the most lavish and detailed expositions of secretive Masonic ritual I have ever seen. Others more knowledgeable than I say it is stunningly accurate. This alone made it worth watching."

"Occult Forces" (1943) -- National Socialist Anti-Freemasonry Film : Free Download & Streaming : Internet Archive

Also info here:
OCCULT FORCES FILM - DIRECTOR SHOT DEAD - FREEMASONRY EXPOSED - 12160

This is a great film made over 60 years ago that cost the life of its director Paul Riche, a pseudonym of Jean Mamy, who was shot dead at the fortress of Montrouge on 29th March 1949 for what the Masonic courts termed; “Collaboration with the enemy”.

And here, on the film director:
http://fr.wikipedia.org/wiki/Jean_Mamy

Durant la Seconde Guerre mondiale, il se place donc clairement du côté des Allemands. Son dernier film, le moyen métrage Forces occultes (1943) est une œuvre de propagande, attaque virulente contre la franc-maçonnerie — dont il avait fait partie — le parlementarisme et les juifs, dénonçant un prétendu complot judéo-maçonnique.

En août 1944, sa mère est arrêtée par les Forces françaises de l'intérieur (FFI), il se constitue prisonnier. Son procès, qui n'aura lieu qu'à Noël 1948, à une période où théoriquement les passions de la Libération (épuration) tendaient à s'atténuer, n'a pas empêché la cour de justice de le condamner à mort pour sa collaboration particulièrement active avec la Gestapo[2]. Il sera le dernier fusillé de l'épuration en mars 1949.

 

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Panther - YouTube

Good one.

 

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Black Power Salute - YouTube

1968 Olympics Black Power salute - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Excellent material. Excellent documentary on an excellent subject.

 

[Yamato]

Nice clip and good points:

Kathleen Cleaver of the Black Panther Party breaks down Why we wear our hair like this 1968 - YouTube

More good clips on how the sheeple of america behaved just a few decades ago, before a few got up, risked their lives, to promote change. Things can improve. Or at least they did in the 1960s, when people weren't sleeping as much as they are today. Now imagine if the CIA-FBI hadn't shot down all the guys they shot down: JFK, Martin Luther King, Malcolm X, Robert Kennedy and dozens of others. But that's the US. Freedom of speech as long as you talk about sports. If you talk about politics, use that freedom at your own risk. Cleaver and Davis are two of the few who didn't get killed.

ANGELA DAVIS - YouTube

Campus Unrest in late 1960s & early 1970s at UCLA - YouTube

Angela Davis today, on Slavery and the Prison Industrial Complex, which must have something to do with the military-industrial complex, which is part of why the US government created 911:

Slavery and the Prison Industrial Complex - Angela Davis - YouTube

Here's another related video from another hot lady:

The New Jim Crow: Mass Incarceration in the Age of Colorblindness - YouTube

Here's two more excellent videos (not with hot ladies) on the prison industrial complex:

American Drug War:The Last White Hope (a kevin booth film) - YouTube

War on Drugs.-.Prison Industrial Complex in USA. - YouTube

 

[Yamato]

Today no scratching nor overeating. Each time I felt like exceeding compulsively at something, I allowed myself to exercise (sit ups and push ups), which is really what my body wanted to do. You eat because you want to chew, meaning action. You scratch because you need exercise. You engage in compulsive gambling, because you're restless and want action - I hope this is true, too, even though I haven't tested exercise as a cure to compulsive gambling, given that my account is now below 2000 and I can't trade.

If you let your body exercise, then the urge and the compulsion goes away. I don't want to say I solved it yet, but most of the problem (compulsive gambling, scratching and eating) might have been that I was sitting still for too long: at work for six hours and then at home for the rest of the day. Ok to not go out, because I don't care to see rome and the rude romans, but this shouldn't prevent me from allowing my body to exercise at home. It's a simple need that I never realized I had: I never wanted to admit I am still an animal like other humans despite the fact that I use my brain.

It also sounds right, because everyone said to me "you need to exercise", but given that people are usually wrong, I thought that once again... they were the usual idiots saying stupid things. Instead this time they were right probably. The one important difference is I am doing exercise right at home, whereas they were suggesting things that are a huge waste of time, such as "jogging", "going to the gym", "swimming". There's no way that each time I feel the urge to engage in a compulsive behaviour, I get dressed, pack my things, take a trip to the gym and exercise. The whole thing would take me 3 hours and I'd waste the whole day at the wrong time, when i don't need exercise. I don't want to come home exhausted, waste money and hang out with idiots at the gym. I want to do just enough exercise to avoid: 1) overeating, 2) compulsive scratching of nose/scalp, 3) compulsive gambling.

[...]

It's like a recipe. If you don't exercise, everything is going wrong, because you'll take out the need for action on the wrong fields. If you inject a little exercise, the recipe works. I also read that you need a little bit of laughter during the day, and a little bit of music. Sometimes the solution is in little details and you don't realize it. I thought I needed massive willpower, and I was wrong. What I needed is comparable to a door squeaking that needs a little wd-40. If you have no idea what the problem is coming from, you might want to replace the door, but then you do it, and it still squeaks. Maybe I just needed some wd-40 and instead I thought i needed to radically change myself. Or maybe the problem is bigger and this exercise solution is not going to last. Maybe there's other ingredients I am ignoring. But what is the first thing you notice about people in jail: they're all built up from weight-lifting and other exercise they do. Why? Because they need to move. And being an employee with 20 days of vacation per year is a little bit like being in jail. But I didn't realize it and I was looking for other causes. Of course now I am not saying I am any happier, but I might have found a way to satisfy that specific need for action, which was going in the wrong directions: eating, scratching, gambling, phone calls. Maybe there's also a need for company, but I think that part is satisfied by the people I already meet, without actually making an effort to go out and meet friends at the restaurant.

[...]

That unanswered need for action went into my trading, it corrupted it, and it turned it from "desire to make money" to "desire to make money and desire for action". I felt an extra urge to trade, that wasn't coming from just the drive to make money. There was a compulsive manic drive that consisted of much more than that. It made me look forward to it, like an addiction does.

http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Impulse_control_disorder
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Behavioral_addiction
http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Pathological_gambling

Preoccupation. The subject has frequent thoughts about gambling experiences, whether past, future, or fantasy.
Tolerance. As with drug tolerance, the subject requires larger or more frequent wagers to experience the same "rush".
Withdrawal. Restlessness or irritability associated with attempts to cease or reduce gambling.
Escape. The subject gambles to improve mood or escape problems.
Chasing. The subject tries to win back gambling losses with more gambling.
Lying. The subject tries to hide the extent of his or her gambling by lying to family, friends, or therapists.
Loss of control. The person has unsuccessfully attempted to reduce gambling.
Illegal acts. The person has broken the law in order to obtain gambling money or recover gambling losses. This may include acts of theft, embezzlement, fraud, or forgery.
Risked significant relationship. The person gambles despite risking or losing a relationship, job, or other significant opportunity.
Bailout. The person turns to family, friends, or another third party for financial assistance as a result of gambling.

I have marked in red the parts that apply to me. Maybe it was not a severe form of compulsive gambling, but the addiction was strong enough to keep me from being profitable, because I wasn't just trading to make money but also to find action, and therefore I was making those extra trades - it was not a problem of not knowing how to make money. It was a problem of wanting to trade at all costs.

 

[Yamato]

Black Panthers (1968) - YouTube

 

[new_trader]

Hey Travis,

You might find this interesting:

How Government Tries To Mess With Your Mind

http://www.lewrockwell.com/lewrockwell-show/wp-content/uploads/286__Valentine.mp3

 

[Yamato]

Thanks for this great link. I will now listen to this Lew Rockwell, on top of Alex Jones.

The episode list is here:
Full Episode List

Then there's Doug Valentine:
Home - Douglas Valentine

Which takes me here:
Phoenix Program - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

PRUs would kill suspected VC, and terrorize and capture civilians who were thought to have information on VC activities. These civilians were then taken to the interrogation centers where they were tortured in an attempt to gain intelligence on VC activities in the area.[1] Few of the prisoners survived -- most of them were tortured to death, and those that survived the torture sessions were generally killed afterwards.

Just as I thought: the US government empowers the sick and criminal people to abuse the weak people of the world at will, whether it's Vietnam or Iraq or anywhere. This thing has to stop. There's more criminality produced by the US government than by the rest of the world put together.

And here:
Operation Mockingbird - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

Operation Mockingbird was a secret Central Intelligence Agency campaign to influence media beginning in the 1950s.

I guess this is not a problem any longer for the CIA. Now the corporations own the government, the CIA, the FBI and the media. So there's no need for the CIA to influence the media, as they're both following the orders of the same master.

Right now I don't see any reasons why any US citizen should want to live in his country. The good people living there should all seek asylum in any European country or even Canada.

 

[Yamato]

"If I Wanted America To Be A Dictatorship" - YouTube

 

[Yamato]

This is first Italian I found who can see the big picture of the illuminati-masonic conspiracy:
Paolo Barnard

Paolo Barnard - Il Piu' Grande Crimine [INTEGRALE] - YouTube

He has an outstanding and non-compromising curriculum:
Paolo Barnard - [Chi è Paolo Barnard]

I am glad I am on the same wavelength.

He must have... his father is probably British, because I found this video, too, where he speaks English:

Palestine: The Missing Narrative. Paolo Barnard - YouTube

Interesting point of view on zionism: good summary at minute 9.

Wow, he knows a lot of stuff.

It's not a coincidence that he's not totally Italian and that he knows what's really going on, because most Italians are clueless.

Paolo Barnard, The European Financial Coup d'Etat - YouTube

Great video on the banksters (Fed, ECB, BoE).

Paolo Barnard - Wikipedia, the free encyclopedia

He certainly knows a lot but he doesn't make it easy to listen, because it's not simplified, and it is anything but repetitive. He speaks like a written book, so I'd have to stop every ten seconds and think about what he's saying, but the neighbours are making a lot of noise and pissing me off. I'm going to need to do some push-ups and sit-ups.