no longer blinded by greed
I am VERY satisfied with the new methodology, cfr. attached file below.
Instead of going for a high score, I am now going for self-control. The number one goal was being profitable, and the second goal was setting a stoploss. It did not work, because I was craving for profit so much that I forgot what the losses could be. Now it is the other way around and it seems to work better.
The light shining from profit is too bright to allow you to assess the potential loss. If you instead consider the loss first, you can assess both.
Manfred Mann - Blinded by the Light - YouTube
I would say that I am no longer blinded by greed - provided that I'll stick to this methodology. It's not easy because you can easily relapse into your addiction for wishful thinking and greed.
In practical terms, I have decided that regardless of the score, if I haven't set a stoploss before even just one trade during the whole day, I will delete all the scores for the day.
The consequence has been that i haven't had to delete any scores, and that I am weighing all my trades, and that I am achieving a much higher rate of profitability, although I am aiming for self-control (using a stoploss) rather than performance. Not only I haven't had to delete any scores: I have had seven straight profitable stocks. But this is usually when one loses control, because you feel too good. And that's why you need to take a break, to help yourself forget the past.
The consequence of considering the stoploss first is that I now weigh the risk/reward ratio before making a trade, because I have to pick where I would exit it. In other words, I am now forced to consider each time how much I could lose from the next trade.
The trick is not just to see what makes sense once, but to remember it at all times, and keep doing it, until it becomes second nature. It's not going to be easy, but the chart game is the most precious trading resource I have ever come across, as far as discretionary trading. It is the equivalent of what tradestation (and similar platforms) are to automated trading.
Once I will have learned enough (if I don't quit, months from now), I will open a secondary account with IB, and practice this same methodology on the paper trading account, and then I am pretty much done. Profitable with automated trading, and profitable with discretionary trading, too - which has always been my goal from the start.
In my everyday life, I am helping myself to achieve this by repeating to myself in all occasions:
1) perfectionism is good, but being upset about things not being perfect is bad.
2) don't take things personally: struggle to avoid unpleasant situations and people, but don't take it personally if they happen (waste of time)
3) worrying about yourself is good, but it is a waste of time to be upset if your image or anything about you isn't perfect
4) and so on, you get my drift
This is really hard for me. I know that is what I need. I don't know if I'll ever achieve it. Why is this what I need? Because I take the markets very personally, and that is my biggest problem. And life is related to trading, in that I take everything very personally in life, including random events.