2/12: +$127
f me f my life and f my trading because it's sh1t. Think I'm exaggerating? Think I shouldn't be like this because I made money today? Sh1t, I didn't make money; the market let me live and I utterly had no control of my positions. Omg... where to begin. So NG opened higher.. hey nice. Started reading ET threads around 10pm last night and time flew to 2am... sleepy but also super hungry so made a quick instant ramen noodles and while waiting, opened NG chart. Wow, it's going up, similar to one of my predictions from yesterday, and I'm hating it because I'm not riding it. Whatever. I'll just make money during market hours. I eat the damn noodles that nearly killed me because maybe I ate it too fast - I couldn't digest it, was burping all night, and ended up falling asleep close to 6am. Woke up just before 8am I think... eyes just opened. After 8am NG is looking to drop, so I short 2 positions and just played around with 2 positions all day, ending the day I think +$150ish. Was thinking of ending it early and go back to sleep... but nope, that's not me because I'm addicted....Things start to go bad when I enter a short position at 1.835 at 10:24am because I'm thinking NG is going to drop and hit below 1.820 before bouncing again because it's going up tomorrow. NG decides not to drop right away, so I enter another short at 1.839. I'm just watching the chart as NG creeps up, and I call bullsh.t. Enter my third position at 1.845 and NG keeps on going up and hits 1.855 before dropping. I think I was down $300 or some more before recovering. NG could have used the bullish momentum to go higher to 1.86, 1.87 level and that wouldn't have been unnatural at all... it would have demolished my Feb goal, not to mention my pride in trading, something I need to get rid of because it ain't doing a thing for me except drag me down. I got that feeling of a losing day, and my enthusiasm just died. I was at total mercy of the markets today. Maybe getting too many predictions right lately got into my head? Why I entered 2 shorts so close to one another, and entered the 3rd on not so significant move when that should've been the entry of my 2nd position (if I wanted to be greedy), I do not know, yet will blame my greed of money. Once out of all my positions, was thinking of entering just one position to short at 1.848 because i thought it would go down to 1.830 level by EOD. Decided not to because if i'm wrong, I don't have time today to recover my losses so today's result would be screwed. Glad I decided not to overtrade because my prediction was completely off.
Really sad about my trading today. Will never be confident enough to label myself as a thuglife daytrader when I still pull these bonehead moves that end up wiping out my account. Very thankful I'm positive today. NG just being weird and I hate it.. really excited for the NG report tomorrow. Perhaps, report, drop down, reversal, and gradually go up to really really high and I would be on the ride because I got in a position at the reversal? One can hope. 🙂 If this really happens, $1000+ day tomorrow. No. Don't be like that. $200 target for tomorrow. Because I never seem to learn when things go well...