So you're 19 now.
2 years ago at 17 you spent a year distance studying under a mentor and a year later (just a year ago) went and moved over to his country to stay with him - for an undisclosed period of time. You then took a year off.
Within what can only be the merest fraction of a year, you've aced your A-levels, got into a good at Uni, seen two therapists and are doing 60+ hours a week in a fast food outlet.
Whatever your strong points are - maths isn't one of them. I'd suggest reality isn't in your Top-10 either.
Apologies for the terse tone, but there are too many people on this site earnestly searching to improve their trading to have time-wasters like you sapping their energies with superfluous story telling.