Hey, coopster, this is hilarious. Thanks for being so delicate. I've felt insulted before because of comments on my trading, but you've managed to tell me all this stuff without offending me at all. That is quite an achievement. I will now answer more in detail. I will have to sit down on the couch with my laptop.
FROM HERE ON, FEEL FREE TO READ OR IGNORE MY POST, because I am writing largely for myself and I won't be offended if you ignore my post and won't reply to it. (Actually usually I get into arguments with those who reply, but feel free to read and even reply).
Overall you sound very very wise. Also your way of saying things, and the fact that you have decided to begin by just investing fraction of dollars: that shows a lot of patience on your part.
Let me make one important premise: I am not as bad as I sound, and not as bad as I've sounded in the last few hundreds posts (thanks for reading them: read the first 500 and you'll get a different picture). Yes, I do lose money every month, blow out accounts on a regular basis, and have never had a profitable month, with my discretionary trading. But also you must consider that I've built trading systems that sometimes double the investment in just one month (only problem: I don't have much capital to invest in them). I've done something good in all these years: only it's not related to my discretionary trading. I am still a beginner as far as that applies. But I may turn into a pro overnight if I could just fix those few psychological problems that are keeping me from being profitable.
Everything you said made sense, and thanks for taking the time to write it here, and phrasing it so patiently and with important details. It was clearly stated and it said nothing that wasn't important.
I will answer more in a while, from the couch.
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You say important and interesting stuff
here:
1) Apologies if it is too long.
2) I've learned a lot before i've even clicked the buy button!!
3) I have read a ton of books (Naked Trader, Dr Elder, Jesse Livermore and several more) because I refuse to go into this risky business blindly.
4)... but not got as far as even papertrading as yet.
5) I have a basic list of rules that I have gleaned from the books I've read (and T2W) that I think would be a good start if I can play them with discipline and I would like to know what the hardened pros think.
1) Unusually polite person (or maybe british people are all like this)
2) and 4) Very unusual trader, as far as patience. Even willing to wait before he paper trades. To read before starting to trade. That sounds very unusual and what's unusual is good.
3) Hard working guy.
5) Looking up to the "pros". I don't know if this is good or bad. I never liked or cared about the "pros", nor ever found who they are or if they exist. But since I never made any money, this might be good.
Overall you're totally different from me, in better ways, so i think you most likely will succeed and fast. Especially because i am not that superficial either, but you beat me in depth and hard work. So I think you'll do great.
As far as me, what can I say. You're painting me like an idiot, but no offense taken, because you're so polite and you were actually trying to help me - I realize that. And maybe I am an idiot, after all. Or probably I have some deep psychological problems that keep me from performing at my best.
You see, the problem is not that I don't know the things... or at least - I haven't read any (full) books (except livermore) like you did - but I've heard all the things you said before, as you actually expected. But hearing them doesn't mean you process them correctly. On top of that: those things you mentioned may even be conflicting with one another and may not produce a profitable method. The "pros" proclaiming those principles may even not be profitable. In fact let's say it all: I despise and look down on all those principles and all teachings that come from books and pros, and any kind of teacher on the face of the earth. You got that right. I set it out to do everything by myself. I've always been self-taught.
But let's get to the point, because you made me reason quite a bit like anyone who talks about me, which I enjoy always. The point is that i think in fact i have a higher than average intelligence and culture. And knowledge of the markets which is higher than the average trader. So I don't have any doubts that I have all the knowledge and intelligence it takes to be profitable, if we assume that a trader can be consistently profitable, which i do assume (but most non-traders disagree with this).
Anyway, so we've established that the only problem is psychological. It's as if you are a child who decides he will not talk and people go around saying he's dumb and deaf, until he decides to talk and you realize he talks fine. There's something in me that prevented me - i don't know what - but something that kept me from being profitable all these years. Going against the trend, not accepting a loss... it's a small but persistent thing that is keeping me from being profitable. You don't have to teach me anything, like discipline... these are just words. The requirements for profitability one day will click or won't. It won't happen because you taught me about the concept of "discipline".
One day, I think soon, I'll decide that I want to make money, and I will make money. I'll probably come back to this journal to explain how I'm doing it for the benefit of everyone, and then I'll stop doing it maybe because I'll feel that I'm giving away my secrets. I enjoy speaking my mind and I'll do it even if it causes me some damage but I won't go to the nazis and say I am a jew or similar. I will only do so much damage to myself for the sake of saying the truth.
There's always some invisible members reading, an increasing number of invisible ones. Well, all readers make me happy, because I feel that my sincerity is not wasted and that it's what allows me to reach people. If I were always calculating the consequences of what i write, instead of speaking my mind, my writing wouldn't be as easy to follow. Instead, I write as I think. The only problem is that I don't know which one of my 800 posts people are reading and enjoying, but maybe that's what makes me write better - not trying to please anyone. Maybe they're appreciating trading-related (automated discretionary or web search), or maybe psychology related posts. Or maybe youtube related, music or movies.
So, one day, soon, I will wake up and stop smoking. Does this happen, coopster? Well, for me trading is the same. One day, soon, I will wake up and decide I'll start making money. How come people stop smoking like that? Very often I've heard people say "one day I stopped". Have you ever heard of "compulsive gambling"? Doesn't it sound like this addiction is similar to smoking? Why can't a person one day wake up and stop losing money just like another person stops smoking? That's the point you don't get, and so far my trading career seems to be proving you right, but I believe this is the case: one day I will start making money, just like that, without any books to be read.
Other interesting things you said:
From what i can tell, you have read many books/websites on the subject of trading and decided "what does this guy know, who the hell is he anyway?" and decided to adopt your own magical system that is better than some professional.
You're dead right. In the sense that I haven't read any books, because even just the first half a page of the dozens of -pdf trading books I downloaded on emule were enough to wonder "why is this guy teaching about trading (except E.P.Chan, that I appreciate and approve of, and read his 8 chapters on automated trading) and having to write 150 pompous pages about it? why aren't they painting things as simple as they are?". And my conclusion was always that these guys are not out to teach anything, but just to get famous or make money. And even if they're saying true things they're overblowing the size and the importance of them. The good guys are the ones writing on forums, or teaching trading in those chats. But since I dislike all teachers I don't even want to be in those chats. I don't mind teaching one to one. If there was a guy wanting me to teach me something just to me, without any classmates, I'd meet him on msn.
It's interesting how you use the term ""professional" and "pro" everywhere. Maybe you're right but I see it differently. A professional is this guy who's 18 and he's profitable. Would you call him a "professional"? This is not like being a doctor or a lawyer. You don't need a degree to make money consistently, and you could have a degree and not be able to make money. So that term doesn't make sense to me. This is more like playing video games. A 14 year old kid could be better than any scientist and so on, and you would never dream of calling him a "professional". In my opinion the term "pros" and "professional" that you and other people use is misleading. But who am I to say this? An unprofitable trader. But my opinion is important to me, and since this is my journal, I am gonna say that the term "pro" sucks. How about that.
Other interesting things you mentioned:
I have been doing this for only 18 months now and have lost a total of $60 from about 10 trades of less than 20c per point. I am not rushing into this head on with a shed load of cash, maybe you should consider doing the same. Slow down or Stop before its too late!!
Many terms you use here and elsewhere convey to me that you're a peaceful, educated and polite person, and that is why I cannot be offended by anything you wrote. I can tell that you really wish to help, but once again, like a smoker would say, I believe that I am totally in control of my addiction, and that one day I will just stop the gambling and start making money.
Regarding the above quote. You sound very wise, definitely and also you sound like the exact opposite of me and what I've done. And you sound like you have the self-control, patience and discipline and state of mind to be profitable. You sound just like you're doing the perfect things, and - amazingly - things I've been recommending to everyone at the beginning of this journal (but never putting into practice): paper trade until you become profitable.
I've recommended it to everyone and i still do, but i can't do it. Because the reason I want to trade (and make money) is that i find it very exciting. And I don't know how you can manage to keep going like this, with paper trading and studying, without ever starting to trade (with bigger amounts than cents). Probably that's the right way to do things. Hey, I am the one who recommended it in the first place. I just wonder how you can do it. It's not fun at all. We'll see who's right. Maybe we'll both be profitable, maybe one of us, maybe neither... even if you said I am wrong and I am in a tragic situation (so far yes, but not forever maybe), that wouldn't get me down, and it may do some good in fact. Learning to trade is not always a peaceful process, nor is it always a quick process. I am confident that if anyone can learn it and if anyone can be profitable, then I am totally close to profitability as well. I can do it any time I decide to.