Spoiler alert .. it didn't go too well
My eight-year career as a day trader with some of the best educators in the business
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Re-read this excellent write up once again from start to end, especially the last paragraph
<<<<<<< it just
feels right and if I learned one thing from eight years as a day trader — it is to take
feels right seriously. Trading felt exciting, grasping, desperate, overwhelming intense, powerful, but never
right. <<<<<<<<
"it just feels right" = direct consultation with the inner self = instantaneous peace that is anything but ephemeral
Trading felt exciting, grasping, desperate, overwhelming intense, powerful, but never
right"
All stunningly +ve attributes in life ..... exciting, grasping, desperate, intense, powerful ......... like being in LOVE. With many partners over the years the
never right was there
but with one, the
felt right was there and so was
all the other stuff all thrown in together.
The Resolution:
When you are ready for DEVOTION it will show up at your doorstep quietly & softly and without fanfare just the way Love does. Not before, regardless what you do. And then, there is no need to sacrifice intense, desperate, exciting, grasping, powerful.
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Therefore my very first post to your opening post remains my message
The darkest hour is just before dawn
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Therefore I expect you will return and this time conquer it. 6 years of invested time and aggravation and sweat and blood and tears - is what I call massive investment. The reward gots to come thru' - that's just the way it is. And this is no small reward we are talking about. This is huge. It entails such massive towering freedom and whatnot. Such never comes cheaply. I refuse to believe that the Physical and/or spiritual universe would deny you after what you've been thru'.
Ain't nothing wrong with falling on one's ass at the 90-yard line. Just get up and finish the last 10