Yamato
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death is approaching
I am going to allow myself some screwing around after working non-stop since this morning. In half an hour I will go home. In twenty minutes I will go home.
I am going to watch some movies as usual. Today, I want to finish all De Niro's movies, at least those from the 1970s, stuff that I didn't watch yet, despite the fact he's my favorite actor. I guess I have a workaholic approach even to watching movies. That's why I said "I want to finish", as if it were a duty or a task.
Today the systems are losing 500. There's a long trade on the GBP, started by one of my best systems. Unfortunately it's losing 500 right now. Nothing I can do about it. On the other hand, these are the same systems that doubled my money in the past few weeks. Yes, before then, I had wiped out my account because of compulsive gambling.
My boredom right now is such that I am looking at my scar from my recent vacation and admiring its improvement. I rarely did this on vacation. Actually i did it all the time. Maybe I was more bored on vacation than now. Or rather: I was more hyperactive, so I needed to look at it more often than I am doing now. Now I have slowed down my actions, as always, when I come back to work. On vacation I act like I am ten years younger and at work I act like I am ten years older. I go into lethargy. Fifteen minutes to go.
I found a new way to skip lunch and save money: having breakfast. I have breakfast at about 8.30 AM, come to work, then stay here until 3.30 PM and then eat at home. This way I can save about 10 dollars per day if not more.
I am depressed. Because time went by. I used to be depressed because time "will" go by.
Time is running out and death is approaching. I guess even a child could say something like this, a sentence as simple as this.
Somehow this sentence and realization makes me feel the urge to go out and screw as many women as possible. That's my immediate urge. I'll try with one of my colleagues, in ten minutes I have to meet her for a cigarette break. Death is approaching, let's have sex. Leaving in 7 minutes.
I am going to allow myself some screwing around after working non-stop since this morning. In half an hour I will go home. In twenty minutes I will go home.
I am going to watch some movies as usual. Today, I want to finish all De Niro's movies, at least those from the 1970s, stuff that I didn't watch yet, despite the fact he's my favorite actor. I guess I have a workaholic approach even to watching movies. That's why I said "I want to finish", as if it were a duty or a task.
Today the systems are losing 500. There's a long trade on the GBP, started by one of my best systems. Unfortunately it's losing 500 right now. Nothing I can do about it. On the other hand, these are the same systems that doubled my money in the past few weeks. Yes, before then, I had wiped out my account because of compulsive gambling.
My boredom right now is such that I am looking at my scar from my recent vacation and admiring its improvement. I rarely did this on vacation. Actually i did it all the time. Maybe I was more bored on vacation than now. Or rather: I was more hyperactive, so I needed to look at it more often than I am doing now. Now I have slowed down my actions, as always, when I come back to work. On vacation I act like I am ten years younger and at work I act like I am ten years older. I go into lethargy. Fifteen minutes to go.
I found a new way to skip lunch and save money: having breakfast. I have breakfast at about 8.30 AM, come to work, then stay here until 3.30 PM and then eat at home. This way I can save about 10 dollars per day if not more.
I am depressed. Because time went by. I used to be depressed because time "will" go by.
Time is running out and death is approaching. I guess even a child could say something like this, a sentence as simple as this.
Somehow this sentence and realization makes me feel the urge to go out and screw as many women as possible. That's my immediate urge. I'll try with one of my colleagues, in ten minutes I have to meet her for a cigarette break. Death is approaching, let's have sex. Leaving in 7 minutes.
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