Hi folks.
Im in the hospital, but in good spirits. Unfortunately the voices turned really mad & angry in my brain the night after our nice family day at the park. I woke up to more mean voices in the morning commanding me to commit suicide or someone would kill me. When the voices are that extreme, I need help to stabilize them. Reaching out for help at the hospital isnt easy, but its the right thing to do to keep everyone safe.
I love my nieces & nephew so much. They seem to really love & enjoy spending time with me. Im determined to do everything possible to work through my problems. Im committed to sobriety & recovery so i can be there for family for a long time to come.
Going to the hospital for help can be really difficult, but its worth the effort to be there for family. I never give up or quit in life. I offered to do anything, anytime, anywhere for my family. Right now i plan on doing my best to work through this all so i can live a nice long happy healthy positive life with my family. I love & enjoy being an uncle so much. My nieces & nephew deserve a cool uncle to enjoy life with while they grow up. Its up to me to get some help to stabilize the voices in my mind so i can recover & live a nice long family life.
Please know even tho this is a difficult time, im viewing it as a challenge. Its rewarding to spend time with family after i achieve stability in the hospital. After a week or two i should be stable & free again. Once free & stable we will all be able to spend time together & make more happy memories.
Ask everyone to believe in recovery & freedom for me. I promise to do my best to get some help. Please believe in recovery for me thats why hospitals exsist. All i would like is to live a happy healthy positive family life. Im willing to put forth all the effort to improve & help stabilize the voices.
I promise to make the most of whats out of my control today. My goal is to focus on what i can change & improve to make a better tomorrow.
Anyways, everyone take good care.
Remember to love your family & let them know you love them.
Please wish me well in recovery while im in treatment. Promise to do my best for everyone to embrace positive change & improve myself for a happier healthier life.
Love you all
Wishing eveyone here happiness & good health in life.
Take Good Care
Ashton