Hi All.
Kind of personal to post this here, but it is how i feel today. This online community has been a great outlet for me to express my thoughts, feelings & emotions.
Please forgive me for making some small mistakes in life. We all drank in high school & it seemed normal. Reality is, alcohol impairs your ability to think, speak & act normal. People who drink sometimes say & do foolish things. I never committed a serious crime or violent offense. I wasnt ever a mean or angry drunk.
Sometimes, i did say & behave like a drunk person. Im not alone with having a drinking problem though. Thats why there are rehabilitation centers to go in for treatment & recover from a alcohol addiction. I have a drinking problem. Im not able to drink in moderation, so i choose to stay sober. Ive been doing really well with building back my sobriety as well. Please forgive me for my drinking days.
I never hurt, harmed or hated on anyone in my life. I believe in keeping society safe, sane, calm & stable. Im no threat to anyone. If people for some reason believe i am unsafe for society, please give me a fair trial so i can prove myself innocent.
Anyways, i love you all very much. Sorry if i ever came across wrong or was misunderdtood. Never did i mean to let anyone down. Im really a very nice, kind & considerate human being.
Drinking in excess has brought out the worst in me. I love being sober right now thank goodness. I actually am planning on living sober for the rest of my life as well.
Im very happy & almost always in good spirits. Ive been a happy gringo most of my whole life. I may have some down days & get a little depressed, but i would like to accomplish more in life. I did my best to keep the society of voices safe, sane, calm & stable for 20 years.
Please allow me the opportunity to rehabilitate myself in therapy or at a treatment center soon. I am free from drugs, free from drinking & committed to positive changes.
Please dont hurt or harm me for something you think that i did. I told my Dad i would take a lie detector test & jump off a bridge if i failed. Truth is, i was lied to about taking a lie detector test. I still havent recieved a chance to prove myself innocent in over 20 years.
Without fair & speedy trials you can have witch hunts. I really believe that a lot of people are on a witch hunt right now. I am a good, honest, innocent human being that loves life & is committing to improve for family.
Sorry for the long text & being misunderstood. Im like a big, friendly, overgrown kid who loves & appreciates life. I want to be happy & healthy for my nieces & nephews for a long time to come.
Ive been a bit of a free spirit in life & enjoyed life as difficult as its been in the hospital. I still love my life, myself & my family. I view everyone here & reading this to be like one big family. Anyways, i would really miss you all if any of you were gone. Maybe there are people that would really miss me as well?
All i really wanted to do is be cool with my family & have a nice happy, healthy, successful life. I worked 60 hours a week & went to school part time so i could enjoy a nice quality life. I worked full time & went to school so i could enjoy a career job, raise a family of my own & have a great life. Even if im not able to have kids of my own, i love my 4 nieces & nephew like my own children.
Please forgive me. Im not perfect. Please love & accept me for who i am today. I want to improve myself & family relationships for tomorrow. I want to do more in life. Im willing to put in the hard work to recover, rebuild myself & improve our family. Please stop hating me & help me get healthy again.
Thanks for reading. Everyone enjoy the super bowl tonight. Hope to message you later.
Ashton