I'm having nightmares about the DOW and the SPX guys and I thought I share my fears with you all.
In the book Crime and Punishment by Fyodor Dostoyevsky there is a scene where the main character Raskolnikov dreams of a horse being brutally murdered by a bunch of drunks & jeered at the town square. The horse struggles for life step by step, inching for dear life oblivious to every blow battering his tormented spirit. This horse is not a fat lazy horse but a skinny, under fed and overwroked animal. It basically can't pull the kart no matter what the alchololics subject upon it.
Raskonikov goes on to commit a similar crime hacking to death some rich old lady - wheel chair bound. Basically, he does this in a charitable act to get rich quickly to help his family. Quick scheme to kill the old miser, take the money and run. Unfortunately in the process her sister who looks after her, a sweet liddle old caring lady also gets a bit of the axe.
Very good book in a horrible way. Makes Thomas Hardy look like a pretty jolly old man.
Anyhow, to me the two old ladies the good and the bad are the SPX and the DOW and I'm thinking I'm going to knock these two indeces off and get rich pretty quickly. Take the money and run. My nightmare is the horse. I think I may well be the horse being hacked to death by the incessant rise of the SPX & DOW the two filthy rich miserable cash cows battering my spirit, hacking my pension.
True to my nature drawn to my destiny like moth to the flame - I thought I'd give it one last tug - shorting the DOW in the hope I'll be able to hack a few pips off them both.
It's a most uncomfortable feeling but one I risked and so have given up the miserable pips I earnt earlier on in the morning by going long on the DOW.
In fact I'm now -7 pips down.
Life is a horse and then you get whipped to death.
Otherwise a very nice productive day.
Have a nice weekend everyone...
Insightful post, but I think it betrays some weakness in your trading psychology. Please don't take this the wrong way, but all traders go through patches like this. As I am new I don't have all the answers, but I can relate to your feelings.
I am not risking pension funds, so perhaps I have less pressure. However, I have set myself the challenge of making a living income from my SB gambling. I was up £488 last week, £12 off my target, when I took a stupid £6pp position on the Dow in the hope of having a 7 tic move in my favour (the two I needed plus the spread). That ate up a lot of my profits and I ended the week up somewhere around £340-350.
Annoyed at missing my target, I came back at the beginning of this week, and managed to screw everything up royally when a "cancelled" limit was executed. My own emotional issues stopped me closing the trade at the £60 open loss it was at, including the spread, when I realised what had happened. This was a buy limit, and I had just covered a short - but I did not intend to stop and reverse as I expected the market to drop further, but was happy with my profits and didn't wish to assume more risk. I held this position until the close, for a £261 loss. Probably not much of a loss for someone like you, but that was a third of my account at the time, and half my weekly profit target.
IMHO, those two examples are a good way of illustrating how emotions get in the way of good trading. I don't hold overnights, so my sleep is disrupted by regrets about my performance, not worries about open positions. I have come back from that loss after taking mostly a day off - I end the week down £120 - more than covered by last week's profit (so I have lost some of the house money, not my own equity).
Not had a crack at Crime and Punishment since my schooldays, but it was an interesting read then (although I never got through more than a few chapters due to distractions). Might take a look at it over the weekend.
I'm as tempted as everyone else to stick on a heavy short in the false expectation of an effort free 300 or so tics on the way down. Try not to think like that. Consider risk:reward as always, but until there are some clear signs, it is probably not appropriate to short. If you entered the trade on sound analysis, you wouldn't be worrying about 7 tics because you would have done your homework and would have been as confident as possible about the impending drop.
Perhaps it is time for you to review your thoughts and feelings as you have recorded them in your trading journal. If you are uncomfortable with the risk of your open positions, close some of them out, even if it is at a loss. You cannot think rationally when you are risking too much at a given time. I am going to seriously review my trading psychology on account of being down a measly (to most of you here) £120 this week. I need to recognise my mistakes, and move forward to become a better trader.
Perhaps you should ask yourself why you entered that position. What entry signals did you use? Are those usual signals that you have backtested, or a new hunch you are trying out? Did you set at stop, and if so what level did you set it at? Why this level? Is that the amount you are willing to lose, or the point at which you know the trade was "wrong"? Do you have a pattern of earning profits slowly and then giving them all back to the market in a few errant trades?
As I've said, I don't have all the answers, but I hope the above helps you with your problems. You may also want to consider if there is anything in your personal life affecting your trading performace? If you know what is wrong, the weekend should be sufficient rest. However, if you don't feel you have addresed these problems and fully understood your situation before the open next week, consider taking a few days off.
Have a nice weekend - try to relax - don't spend all of your days off in review.