Is this unsustainable or do you just not have the mental fortitude to replicate this with larger sums? Serious question.
Hello Dionysus Toast,
That's an excellent question.
My personal view is that this
is sustainable (depending on your edge and presuming no outliers) but I personally do not have the mental fortitude to replicate it with larger sums.
The more my account grows, the less risk I take.
The funny thing is, £1,000 - £10,000 is exactly the same percentage return as £100,000 - £1,000,000.
However, I have no problem losing 10% of £10,000 in a single trade but I don't have the stomach for dropping £10,000 in one at this point in my career.
It doesn't make
theoretical sense since the risk is the same in percentage. But we are human. And most people don't think in percentages, they think in terms of money.
I will have to drag Bison into this as he made an excellent post on this over here:
http://www.trade2win.com/boards/psy...-trading-but-not-money-why-4.html#post1412240
The reason I have always been able to run up small sums of money is because I find that only with a relatively small amount of money am I in the right frame of mind - that "zen like state" where the focus becomes not on the money but on beating the game.
When you have next to nothing, you play the game to get a high score.
When you have a high score, you just want to protect it.
The reason Bison, despite largely trading my calls, under my tuition, outperformed me so dramatically was that when I was taking my foot off the gas pedal at £10,000 (and withdrawing my initial stake plus profit), he was going all in on every hand the market dealt him.
I've repeated this same story with mind numbing regularity to a number of my students but when I was in prop, I sat next to a trader who was averaging $400,000 a week in the ES. He had come from nothing and had an account in the millions in just a few years.
I wanted to be just like him.
One evening when the office was quiet, he gave me an impromptu and rather informal mentoring session on what it exactly it was he did.
"I can do this!" I thought with a surge of adrenalin. "He uses S/R and the order book and he has some experience so that he remembers what the market looked like before it made major moves. There is no holy grail here. I CAN DO THIS".
Then one day, just before Non Farm Payrolls, he hit an offer of 1,200 lots in the ES, left his desk with no stop in and went to Sainsburys.
"Oh...I
can't do this." I thought with despondency.
Later that day after he strolled back into the office having made an obscene amount of money, I was talking to one of the grads I had befriended.
"I'm going to be just like him one day." this grad said to me with a look of awe in his eyes.
"No, you're not..." was all I could think as he rushed back to his desk to get his stop to breakeven on the Bunds which had rallied about 5 ticks.