You are betting with the bucketshop. The market is not necessarily involved. If you are a consistent looser, then the market needn't play a role at all.
If you only have yourself to impress, then why are you here telling us, I imagine, winning left, right, and center from the bucketshop ? Are you trying to impress us ?
I would suggest you spend less time having irrational arguments and less time posting thousands of posts, and more time concentrating on trading.
If you have some weird dislike for SB companies that's your problem and I'll leave you with it.