So far this seems to have been the pattern of this journal. I think of something wise: I come here and write it. People will compliment me and sometimes even take my advice. Then, when I am off here, or even as I write (many posts written during gambling binges, up to a month ago), I will think of something not wise and immediately do it. Then I'll come here and write about what I have done, and by now dozens of people have written to me messages (here or privately) telling me: follow your rules, follow your discipline, follow what you say.
So people first tell me: very wise. Then they see I don't do it and say "please do it", because they care for me, which is unusual to me, since my father seems to be happy when he sees me fail. He even used to be the first to point it out when I failed. You see how one can become a sick person with a sick father like that. Your dad should be encouraging you, and not taking pleasure in noticing that you failed.
Anyway, I come here, write wise things, get complimented, don't do them, get told to do them... and now there's even a fellow reader who tells me he has doubled his (paper trading) account thanks to my advice.
I guess at this point, by post 30 thousand, or by post 60 thousand, I am going to achieve this: dozens of readers become profitable thanks to things I say, and they force me to do the same. I hope it will happen.
Actually what is happening is not even that strange and it's more or less as follows. I do the wrong things and warn everyone: hey, guys, do not do this because it hurts. So people come and say: thanks for the advice. And many posts that have been written here are on that tone. "Hey guys, I was eating dinner... and all of a sudden i took a fork and stuck in my leg: it hurts, don't do it". "Oops, I did it again". That's my journal, pretty much.
Or like this: recipe for such and such meal. I tell everyone the ingredients. I tell everyone how to cook it. The dish is ready to be served. And then... "oops, guys, I threw everything out the window".
And then, all these people, will take what's good in my posts, except the final part of throwing everything out the window, because they don't have that self-harming inclination.
But maybe it's different. Maybe I did not have the recipe for a good meal, and I have developed it thanks to writing and being read on this journal. Maybe the tests are not being made by me, but by the readers, who are trying my trading methods. Maybe to be safe I use my crap methods, but at the same time, I tell everyone "try this, I think it works", and hopefully as they tell me "yes, it works", I will embrace those methods I suggested.