Ok guys i'm back, work has been busy so i've not had much time to trade. However i have been trading the last 48 hours and let me tell thee it's been craaaazy. I've had some time spare so on monday morning i started trading Indicies and EUR/USD.. about 20 hours later i'm still trading and i'm up by about +400 points. I started to do my notes and finish off and did the deadly "one last trade" and then 4 trades later i'd blown the +400 and was down to +3.5, i was tired and should of just stopped, the markets changed direction and i did my special where i believe it will return and added to my positions. Anyway i was stopped out by 0.1 points on all positions and then 5 seconds later there was a massive move down which would of been a nice earner.. instead of earning a large sum on top of the money i'd made for the day just lost it all as i was doing too many contracts at once like a doofus.
This morning i woke and thought i'd not rush in to trading but my 1st trade hooked me a nice profit and by 4pm i had made more than i did yesterday at my peak. Again i was going to quit there and go out for a bit (which i should of really) but i carried on i then got stuck in a trade and added to it (once abloodygain) and ended up getting anally raped by the Dow Jones and i currently stand at -30.
I am starting to believe more that it's not a co-incidence that i can bag large numbers of points quite easily, but i need to stop doing silly things like increasing my stake sizes to levels that are just stupid for my account size, there is no point in earning points if i will just give it back due to rule breaks. I believe i can do this and go far but i've got to stop being an idiot about it and take it more seriously. It's not a laughing matter to see a large sum disappear so i need to learn to focus and know when to finish off for the day. I've done it so many times, been up by a large sum and go to bed flat or minus.
Anyway in the New Year i will have more time for this, hope all is well 👍
