Mindfulness
Hello,
I am very surprised to see a thread on Eastern thought. The following is from a teaching session of Thich Nhat Hanh; it very much captures my internal state when I am trading well. It's an unusual feeling--a bit distanced from things and standing apart from myself, realizing, "Here's a place where I used to place bad trades." I still feel something of the urge to put on the bad trade, but the part of me that stands apart from the habitual trader is stronger and keeps me as the observer of my tendencies.
I lose that observing capacity when I trade badly; I am no longer mindful in trading. The feeling after a bad trade is regret, but not so much the regret of losing money. It's almost a kind of guilt--a recognition that I lost something greater: my awareness of self. Despite many years as a trader and psychologist, I have only recently learned to embrace that guilt and accept it as a motivator. For years I have observed markets. At my best, however, I observe myself observing markets. As I am writing this, I am wondering why, amidst all the writing I do for websites (including this one and my own), I have not written more on this topic. Perhaps I have not sufficiently embraced my guilt, after all... :idea:
Brett Steenbarger
http://www.plumvillage.org/teaching...st 6 Transforming Negative Habit Energies.htm
"Our joy, our peace, our happiness depend very much on our practice of recognizing and transforming our habit energies. There are positive habit energies that we have to cultivate, there are negative habit energies that we have to recognize, embrace and transform. The energy with which we do these things is mindfulness. Mindfulness is a kind of energy that helps us to be aware of what is going on. Therefore, when the habit energy shows itself, we know right away. "Hello, my little habit energy, I know you are there. I will take good care of you." In recognizing it as it is, you are in control of the situation. You don’t have to fight it; in fact the Buddha does not recommend that you fight it, because that habit energy is you, and you should not fight against yourself. You have to generate the energy of mindfulness, which is also you, and that positive energy will do the work of recognizing and embracing. Every time you embrace your habit energy, you can help it to transform a little bit. The habit energy is a kind of seed within your consciousness, and when it becomes a source of energy, you have to recognize it. You have to bring your mindfulness into the present moment, and you just embrace that negative energy: "Hello, my negative habit energy. I know you are there. I am here for you." After maybe one or two or three minutes, that energy will go back into the form of a seed, in order to re-manifest itself later on. You have to be very alert."