OK.
Demoing only for past couple of days.
I think I have got "it" out of my system.
I was utterly offended by my behaviour on Tuesday.
Completely did not follow any rules, or more precisely, tried to second-guess them.
Really upset with my actions.
I think its one of those psychology things.
I am a programmer. I work by rules. I expect that if I do the correct thing, I am "entitled" to an outcome.
Obviously, I can do all the right things, and still lose. I can do all the wrong things, and win.
I think this where perfectionism comes in, or performance anxiety.
If I do the thing I am trained to do, I want the outcome that I planned.
Its not "right" that I don't get the outcome I had planned.
I still believe in my pullback method.
I think it is robust method to find minor pullbacks in a larger trend.
Looking for OB positions in downtrend, and OS positions in an uptrend is a robust technique.
Small-stakes trading, by EA, across multiple charts is easy.
Larger stakes trading over just two charts becomes personal.
I am not sure if looking for trading targets work. If the market permits, I should be riding trades for as along as possible.
Actions:
01: Abandon hedging for the time being. I dont have enough margin allowance to make it work with FTMO.
02: Return to journalling the reasons for all trades.
03: Reduce the number of lines on my charts! I have been using them as crutches for too long.
Make charts clearer.
04: Reconsider the use of a certain indicator to define trend. If the market goes sideways for too long, the indicator is no longer reliable. Recognise this, and have more confidence in certain patterns that are more accurate.
05: Draw, and I am actually getting good at this, Sup/Res lines, and trust myself in their utility.
05a: Problem here for automation is that I cant automate Sup/Res lines, as these are manually determined. Dont trust any free indicators that supposedly draw Sup/Res automatically.
06: Possibly, trade other charts, using small stakes, just to spread out my attention, and to build portfolio of trades.
07: Stop marrying trades! They are no good for me; they just leave me, and take half my account.
When will I learn?!
I will return to trading the Verification process from Monday.
I am closing this week with a loss of 5%, pretty much -1,750£.
Despite my abysmal week, I hope the rest of you guys had a profitable week.
Enjoy the weekend, unwind, and prepare for another great trading week.