"out of their depth"
I for one am only too aware of this statement, and I believe most private traders could consider themselves such, given the arena in which we choose to play!
Perhaps the nature of trading attracts a certain type of individual from the outset, and these same individuals are the ones who need to experience the market's humbling before they realise their place in the game.
I have come from a varied but generally well ordered background with self sufficiency being a high priority in my life. I have always been a risk taker, whether it be commercially or socially, what I was not prepared for was my now apparent lack of risk aversity in financial matters. I am not sure if this is down to ego alone, but I know it is playing a part - after all I am male!
My futures a/c is down 80% and has been here twice before too! I've been trying this for two years now, and whilst we're not talking telephone numbers here, the percentage loss is the important factor. Under-capitalisation is another issue which does not help, but there is at least one discipline I have shown and that is in the amount of money I've been prepared to throw at this!
I now know my problems, but have tried numerous ways to overcome them to no avail - I just lapse straight back into them after a brief period of control. I have also been unable to find external sources of help. You see the markets attract people like myself who crave independance, but without the normal societal rules or accepted practices, we find ourselves in a totally uncontrolled environment. Someone mentioned earlier that if you don't lose in the first 6 months then the end result is almost inevitable, I can't comment on this as I've never really been profitable. The profitable days are so few and far between that I can recall them as I type this! One thing I can say is that this has been a death of a thousand cuts, and I'm not sure if I've received 800 or a 1000 yet - I'll let you all know when that happens.
In the meantime I remain fascinated by the perversity of the markets, and lured back to her each and every day I am able to be! Right now I'm reflecting on my own inability to control self, which is what has lead to this position. I have learned much along the way but am not sure if I've really learned the ultimate lesson!
Cheers and I hope this might help someone else!
Quercus