guess this is what being a newbie is all about.
We've all been there, and that's why they call it "growing pains".
The mantra I use a lot is: "Money is a tool, a form of communication... it is not an object of affection we stroke and coo over."
Easier said than done. You learn by doing.
I have been trading stocks and currencies for years, and started trading precious metals this year. Nonetheless a lot of the technicals, economic factors, geo-political variables are corollary.
And, yes, there is a lot of great advice on this forum, however... please ask yourself this... if you owned the goose that layed golden eggs, would you give the eggs away for free in a public chat room?
In other words, please do your homework and take everything anyone says with a grain of salt.
Pick yourself up, dust yourself off... and go get yours !
Good luck !