This is me Venting. I got to get this off my chest so i can get back to a proper mindset.
The morning began like any other, dark and lonely (no one else is waking up at 2 to trade). I turn on my PC and look over the EU and UJ. Long term resistance was 1.2353 on the EU there were 2 tests at 1.2347 and a high about 2 pts above. Pretending to be a good trader I waited. On a notepad i wrote "Attempt sell E/U 1.2347". The UJ started moving up, the level identified was yesterday's high 91.69 above it was 91.74, short term resistance that was holding since Monday. Ready for the trading day, I taught.
91.69 was the first to be hit on the UJ, a small shoot up as i entered, but no worries i told my self. Silly thing ran up to 91.74 and held, i should have known.
I looked accross to the EU, as it moved up and stalled 1 point from my level (1.2347). After a small unsustained run down it moved up (1m charts while waiting for entry). The idiot shot up like a rocket and i went into newbie mode, (click the button, dont click the button, click the button, dont click the button) It shot down forming a hammer and was now back at my level, but did i enter?
Nope, i was still in newbie mode! Still in newbie mode, i said to myself hmm that major resistance might break this short term/ broken long term resistance level at 1.2326 so i entered long on the short term resistance at 1.2322. (like four points could really do anything) Luckily in newie mode i have little confidence in counter positions and as it shot so far against me 5 points i exited at -1 pip.
Meanwhile back on the UJ, the market was going nowhere. I told myself that the USD was strong and might end up beating my position and i exited for one pip profit (stupes)
Back to the moving EU, Down down down down, where will it stop, at 1.2308 (at least that's what i taught). The level was hit hard but it only moved 3 points against me initially so i wasn't too scared, that feeling was short lived, i was soon down 13 and looking to craft an exit, i moved my target t0 5 pips and saw the price move to 16 against, (at least i wasn't nervous). I had a hard stop at 23 and was looking toward any loss less than 13 as acceptable. The market moved to -9, it stalled, then -7 but there was tick chart resistance and it came back to -8. I forgot to close in my stop so i wouldn't lose more than 13 as per my imagined super shik the trader mode. As i waited with the price stalled at -8, the Forex auctioneer whispered (cause i definitely couldn't hear him) going once, going twice, hahahahahah not for you and the market shot down to -14. I slipped back to newbie mode and hoped for a favourable bounce, I looked at he ceiling and when i looked at the trade again it was -20 against me, I scratched my beard and I was out. -23
Back at the UJ my focus on the EU prevented me from seeing the trendline get hit at 91.78. The bugger shot down form there and would have been a moderate trade so far. My mind succumbed to the "if ah did take" syndrome and i started to count unmade pips and the resulting difference between my actual and potential trading account. I am writing here until the revenge trade bug gets out my finger and i can hopefully trade objectively. As i write i missed an entry at 1.2297 to be Short the EU which was going to be on top of some news so maby this is working.