oh - hello geez - welcome to x-pro club! 🙂 I worked for Kleinworts for 3+ yrs and then for another yr - at Gazprom in Moscow trading ruskie oils. During me time at Kleinworts traded practically everything - from Scandis and UK Techmark - to US individual issues and indices. I was an OTC options trader there - but as u know when u cant make money on OTC options u take prop positions in futs and listed options. Was up USD 14 mln on my book for 2001, but the kraut bosses 🙂 figured they want US books in Frankfurt, offered me this cr*p german contract, I refused, got my bonus and left for the ruskies. Very good time in Moscow, but sadly I was trading YUKOS in March of 2003 with all that Slavneft rub***h, so when the ruskies government decided they get dosh from YUKOS arresting their executives and traders - I left.... perhaps the best trade I've ever done 🙂
I am still a bit surprised u r not making money trading on yr own. Of coz being an OTC trader makes things easier - as u directly c the client interest, once on yr own - u dont c it 🙁 but still.... step back mate and take a butchers' at yr trading system - there must be something wrong with it. Or - alternatively - u may be soft with yr stop losses and let yr losses run..... IT IS DEFINITELY one of those 2 things.....